There was one moment in time where it came across my mind legitimately but mostly it was just emotional trauma and sometimes I'd burn my arm/scrape it. Never actually cut myself or anything though. I've come to terms with it all now.
I've never done anything to myself because I personally deem it unnecessary, but I've thought about it or said I wanted to die just 'cause of stupid tantrums.
Virtually every **** day of my life. It's always in the back of my mind at the very least.
Ever since I found out what death was, at about 4, I've thought about killing myself.
Of course, I haven't obviously, never even tried. I have my reasons for not doing so. But, yes, I do often think about it.
Even though a part of me wants to, really, really wants to. I wont. Like I said, I have my reasons.
i've thought about it a lot in the passed several months. i've been stuck in a pretty deep depression a lot of times lately.
but at the same time, i would never actually go through with attempting anything. i'm too afraid of physical pain.
I think of it really often, and really want to do it. Ive had times where Ive thought of it more seriously, like how or when. And Ive craved it at times as a release and where thinking about the ways of doing it makes me want it even more. I really often get temptations though; like while driving or jumping off of things Ill have a thought of do this or do that and it'll be over and sometimes I almost give into those without even thinking. The only reason I haven't so far is because of the few people around me. I'm not even one of those people who thinks suicide is selfish, I think it's quite the opposite actually but idk, I think me living in pain for a little longer is better then the temporary pain they'd have.It just honestly depends on how I am at the time. My depression and stuff goes through such different phases; some I'm so apathetic and others I'm very manic and suicidal and etc.
I have thought about it many times, but then I think about what it would do to my family and friends if I did. I don't cut, but I self-harm. I once gashed my face up pretty bad by scratching. I also punch things and have cut my hand and knuckles by doing that.
constantly since the age of 12. it's hard keeping myself from falling into that daydream where i wonder if i'll be able to do it and how, and how people would react if they found me. i've attempted and it hurt and instinct took over, and thankfully i'm getting back on track with a new doctor june 28th nwn<3
Yes, I'm ashamed to say I have. I think about it a lot but I could never do it. Even if I feel I can, I do something to take my mind off it like reading, graphic/video making, playing my xbox or even watching my favourite tv shows. TV shows have helped a lot in that department.
I have had a few really low moments where I contemplate it, think of the best way to do it, what I'd say in my suicide note (it would be like 5 pages long with my true feelings of everyone) and even tried it. :blank: In most difficult situations, I have like 3 different feelings. The first one is, "it's not the end of the world and I can get over this", the second is "omg I don't know how to solve/get over this other than just leaving/suicide, but there has to be another way to solve this" and then the final, most hopeless one where I'm like, "all I can do is commit suicide, everyone would be happier, no-one would miss me, I'm completely useless and this problem/feeling will never go away" < that feeling is pretty rare in all honesty but they're becoming more frequent unfortunately. However, normally after I've had a good sleep, I feel a lot better in the morning and I don't feel as hopeless. When I'm uncontrollably upset and angry at myself, I scrape my skin until it's red raw or even bleeding. :sad: I always feel like I'm being selfish to my mother though if I ever did it. I know she'd be devastated if I committed suicide and she'd blame herself. She and my boyfriend are keeping me alive.
