Ok, so we're all at it now! lol This was written about 12 years ago, and it's to my dad.
I look back with fondness,
To that cloudy summer day.
When after years of indecision,
I sought you out.
Surrounded by family I never knew,
I came face to face with the past,
And found myself accepted.
I spent the day watching you,
And discovering myself.
Your humour, your nature,
You'd given it all to me.
And when we talked,
You tried to tell me why,
And I really tried to understand,
But questions still remain.
You said it broke your heart,
To leave me behind.
So why did you go?
As each birthday had passed,
Without even a card,
I couldn't help but wonder,
If you still cared.
Did you ever stop to think of me,
To wonder how I'd grown.
Did you ever stop to wonder,
What I had achieved?
And although these thoughts remained silent,
I believe that deep down you knew.
When you said that you were sorry,
If you'd done the wrong thing.
So it was on a summer day,
That I found you.
And on that day,
I thought I'd seen my future,
With only good times ahead.
But as the months passed with no contact,
And my birthday ignored once more.
My hopes and dreams seemed to disappear,
And in the depths of winter,
I realised you were gone.
There are so many things,
I will never understand.
Whether I made the right decision,
I shall never know.
When something you find,
Is taken away,
It seems better than not knowing it at all,
And somehow the pain seems deeper.
Yet when I look back,
At that cloudy summer day,
I have no regrets.
Just to know you for one day,
Was special to me.
That summer day.
Is all I have left of you.
And although you walk away,
I will never forget.
I look back with fondness,
To that cloudy summer day.
When after years of indecision,
I sought you out.
Surrounded by family I never knew,
I came face to face with the past,
And found myself accepted.
I spent the day watching you,
And discovering myself.
Your humour, your nature,
You'd given it all to me.
And when we talked,
You tried to tell me why,
And I really tried to understand,
But questions still remain.
You said it broke your heart,
To leave me behind.
So why did you go?
As each birthday had passed,
Without even a card,
I couldn't help but wonder,
If you still cared.
Did you ever stop to think of me,
To wonder how I'd grown.
Did you ever stop to wonder,
What I had achieved?
And although these thoughts remained silent,
I believe that deep down you knew.
When you said that you were sorry,
If you'd done the wrong thing.
So it was on a summer day,
That I found you.
And on that day,
I thought I'd seen my future,
With only good times ahead.
But as the months passed with no contact,
And my birthday ignored once more.
My hopes and dreams seemed to disappear,
And in the depths of winter,
I realised you were gone.
There are so many things,
I will never understand.
Whether I made the right decision,
I shall never know.
When something you find,
Is taken away,
It seems better than not knowing it at all,
And somehow the pain seems deeper.
Yet when I look back,
At that cloudy summer day,
I have no regrets.
Just to know you for one day,
Was special to me.
That summer day.
Is all I have left of you.
And although you walk away,
I will never forget.
